‘I think where I am not, therefore I am where I think not’ – Lacan
A desire to create is a desire to See. It stems from a dissatisfaction – distaste even – in what is presented; what asks to be consumed without taste.
Despite its innate function as celebratory of perceptive malleability within the symbolic order (its ability to function as an evocative, transcendental Sign), the act of creationism itself cannot be essentialised to a mere desire for aesthetic and tangible production for the sake of Art. ‘Art’ opposes creationism as Religious doctrine opposes religious experience.
When the palate is whetted, the hunger begins. Ignore the hunger too long and, yes, it will subside – but you remain unsatiated, without nourishment; nothing grows.
Creation is the development and production of a locus of meanings which will exist in both the material and symbolic realms. The output is a bringing together, a tying of ends, a knot of plenitude and temporary nirvana. It cannot be sustained in a singular form for such an existence would negate the function of creationism and creativity.
Creation is both action and output: creationism, the created, the creator. All are threads which are spliced together and are handed to the interlocutor as a guiding rope. But the agent must find their own route, guide their own path. For a creation which tells us “this is what I am” is not a creation but an ideology boasting a singular, ‘true’ reality; it is a Mafioso which extorts and offers in return only the service of itself: its paradox of false truths and true lies. It is a blind-fold to be worn as a mask.
To create is to remove the blindfold, to act against a singular world view, to extort the symbolic order and even reincorporate it. It is therefore politically aggressive in its apparent passivity.
A desire to create must not be ignored, lest we submit to what is given, rather than what we can and have given. We must not let ourselves be numbed. We can play lip-service, we can kneel and utter the words, but we must be our own Gods. We must live through our environment and, most importantly, through all other beings who share our psychological condition.
Freedom must not pervade: in freedom there is non-freedom, the banal omnipresence of oppression which affords us the belief of liberty.
‘We’ must not pervade: in ‘We’ there is ‘They’, the ‘other’ which functions only to reify ourselves as subjects of, subjects against, subjects to.
‘Truth’ must not pervade: in ‘Truth’ there must be ‘Un-Truth’, the two axioms upon which ideologies function and conflict is founded.
‘Peace’ must not exist: in the utopia of Peace the land is burnt, scarred, War ravaged.
We must create to express our awareness – to practice and develop our awareness. Awareness of a human experience created entirely through collectivity, produced, reflected, refracted and re-produced through our own individual conditions and perceptions of existence. It is therefore an experience entirely malleable – asks, even, to be manipulated – as kaleidoscopic rain.
Creationism demands an audience, even if it is the ‘Self’ we have constructed. Such a desire reveals our innate want of interaction and communication, that product of our acceding to language and the development of a human condition. To want an audience, to need an audience, reveals that we exist in a matrix in which singular consciousnesses cannot exist – we are always already mutually reliant on the brothers and sisters who share in conscious experience.
Deny this – deny creationism – and one denies that we are all animals who have collectively created a Universe of experience which can only be lived in relation to one another. The urge to creation reveals an unconscious acknowledgment of the constructivity of the symbolic, the permanence of the material, and the unlimited potential for malleability in a referential consciousness which, by necessity, we created together under the shared condition of insatiably desiring beings.